i have a ridiculous amount of work to do. but i don’t really care right now, i feel the need to rant so rant i shall. school is over in 2 weeks. 2 WEEKS. i’m done with my first semester of college, i’m moving out of my dorm, going back home for 4 months. so strange i cannot fathom how fast this year went, it seems like i just moved in last week. so much has happened and i have had so many good times and made such good friends, but happy to say i’ve maintained my old friendships as well :) i was hoping to find a boy down here but that was unsuccessful, no matter what i do i always go back to sussex county for god knows why.

i think i’ve finally gotten you out of my life and i’m not sure how i feel yet. decent right now, but thats how it always starts. happy to be independent and not need you around…then something happens and we’re back at the beginning. someone else has come back into my life and i’m happy, we have a good time together and he keeps me occupied…but i’m not looking at that romantically. probably because my mind always reverts to you. ugh you drive me insane..why do i do this to myself? i will NEVER know. you have the ability to bring about such strong feelings that other people never seem to do. you make me actually feel something, whether it be good or bad. i’m taking it day by day though…i don’t wanna be pessimistic but you make it hard not to be..

enough for the depress fest. i cannot wait for summer. beach trips with my best friend. reading great books and laying by the pool. sangria and girls nights. just being stupid and not having school to worry about. i cant wait to throw a party in may with all my favorite people i missed so much. yeeeeeee its so close too.  all i have to do is do this african american art paper, my women culture society presentation and my spanish presentation and i will feel somewhat relieved. then just studying and a 10 page paper. I CAN DO THIS. bring it on school. motivation baby.